A Whole New Journey

It has been more than a year since the last time I published something in here. The last few entries were about missing someone and how did I cope up. I reached the final day, Feb 28, 2010, and forgot to update this blog - maybe because of extreme happiness, contentment, and the idea of being together again with the one I love. I found bliss.

Last January 28, 2011, Friday - I'm alone again. This time, not just for a little more than 100 days but, 365 days of waiting. And this time, a whole new journey with "myself".

I have goals for 2011. And this blog will be the witness of my everyday progress.

I'll make sure I'll make it happen. I will! Definitely!

I miss you...

Missing You. 81

If you're missing someone, how do you cope up with that? Well, some people would say that it's never easy especially if you're really attached. I've known a lot of people who left the Philippines for work leaving their lovers behind. I guess, I've never thought of that be happened to me. I've spoken to these people and I got different reactions. For example, Randy, a friend of mine since college freshman. May, his girlfriend since high school, is now in Canada for work. They have been together since high school, thus, it would mean like 11, 12 years? That's wow. But today, they haven't seen each other for a while (but thanks to technology - skype? ym?). I saw Randy once at the glorietta mall and he looked fine and happy. I guess, I would say that their relationship is a lot stronger now because of so many years they have spent together. Another friend of mine, Harryl, who works as a seaman, is now having a vacation with his family in Davao. His girlfriend, the name I don't know, is in the other side of the world (I just don't know which part). They are used to this long-distance-relationship and they are getting married soon. I just don't know what they have done for them to keep the relationship strong.

I guess, the important key here is communication. The current world civilization is so lucky to have the newest and smartest technology the world has ever had. We have thousands of companies who are craving for more technology upgrades and some of these we use on our daily lives. Mobile phones, for example, are so handy and affordable now unlike 8 years ago that you had to spend thousands of pesos to purchase one 3-kilo, soap-like phone. Now, all we have to do is to exhaust these technologies being offered to us. We have skype for real time webcam chat. We have YM to catch him/her online anytime of the day. We have roaming features on our phones for us to talk to our loved ones abroad. And by these means, we can actually keep the relationship that once we thought would fail because of distance.

I miss you. Call me once you're done reading this.

Reality at 82

I have lots of expectations. Most people do. Sometimes, we think that these expectations would eventually come into reality. A short bridge into what-is-called fulfillment. However, who would have thought that expectations are just the idea of making oneself happy for a short period of time until reality comes in? A few people would say expecting on something boosts someone's optimism - positivity on something that is yet to come. But, do we really have to do this? Do we need to put something in mind that doesn't exist yet? What if these expectations are just mere products of our mind's indefinite thoughts? What if, someday, we realize that these are not real? What if these are not meant to happen? What if when expectations meet reality and suddenly we realize that what is happening is not really what we have expected? What do we do next? Well, most people just stop at this point. And then, depression comes in. And when that happens, it doesn't stop until we learn how to accept reality.

Monday at 83

Who loves Mondays, huh? I know its crazy but it always works like this - inevitable! Sometimes we wish that weekends would never end, but, who doesn't want to move on? Me, I am starting to love Mondays. Although it sucks but, it means one day minus to my countdown.

Crazy crazy day.

Sunday Routine. 84

I used to love watching movies. I used to love watching these at greenbelt cinema. I used to do this with my significant other.

But now, I just can't do it. I'm afraid I can't bear the pain while watching without my partner nor the idea of doing our exact used-to-be-sunday-routine with someone else.

Every Sunday, we had this routine and we always find time to make this routine be happened on any given Sunday. We used to start our Sunday with a pretty good workout at the gym mid afternoon. Then swim at the intercon pool (but not all the time). Then we used to have some good dinner at a fine restaurant at greenbelt 3 (my partner had this cravings of trying unfamiliar dishes at different restaurants) - the last time we had was at Mr. Rockefeller and it was amazingly one-of-the-best. Then after dinner, we used to play at timezone (Oh, how I miss Dance Revo, Mario Kart, etc). Then, a good movie to watch, of course. We always watch the last full show and while waiting for the movie to start, we always look for some good dessert - the last one was with Coldrock (expensive but worth it). Then after movie, we used to stay at Starbucks 6750 for an hour to chat before going home. I miss this routine and it's gonna take 84 days more before we can do this again.

Today is Sunday. But, I didn't even bother to do this routine. I can't do this alone, and most especially with someone else doing the exact same thing. Instead, things have changed a bit. I had an hour workout earlier at the gym, I didn't swim, then attended the 6pm mass at the greenbelt chapel, then stayed at powerbooks for hours reading lots of good books (the last book I read was "A Life in Dubai" - a pretty good book but not really the best to read on). Then I went to my former office colleagues' flat in Makati and stayed there for a couple of hours. Then I went home and watched TV.

I know its hard to shift routines especially when you're used to it. But, we couldn't deny the fact of life that we have to be very flexible enough to make room for changes. I know this change is just temporary but, in time, I'll get used to this. 84 days is still a long time and still a lot of Sundays to enjoy this new routine alone.

I miss everything. I miss you.

Si, Estudio en Instituto Cervantes. 85

I had fun earlier at school. We discussed a few popular verbs used in Spanish. We studied the first two verbs and our professor called these as verbo infinitivo - "Estudiar" means to study and "Trabajar" means to work. We had a few good phrases using those verbs and had an exercise with our partners.

After class, we went to the school library and we were introduced to our librarian, Manolo. The library was huge as it has a total of 22,000 books excluding magazines, children's references, DVDs, VCDs, and audio cd's. We toured inside the library and we were guided towards the different sections. Unfortunately, the books are in Spanish, so we thought that we have to learn the language seriously if we want to read these books. There were books for beginners like us and there were advanced books for upper level students.

While in school, we were trying to converse in Spanish - as the only way to learn the language well is to practice it.

I can't wait for our next class next saturday. I really want to learn the language and be certified.

Who knows? Soon, I might be working in Madrid as "banquero de inversiones".

Go-live at 86

Today, out team went on go-live. Not that we are delayed by a couple for weeks, but we just assured ourselves that we could work on our own now. There were slight changes on the process especially with our EOD packs (at least for our staffs), however, this would mean a lot of work on us team leads (additional MIS reports, etc.). But on the brighter side, we just proved to ourselves (and to Dallas) that we can do both cash and stock reconciliation in Manila. Kudos team!

I'm so tired right now. Went home late. And still have to get enough sleep for my spanish class later. Hasta pronto. Adios!