If I Had Only Known

If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand
Like a lifeline to my heart
Underneath the thunder we'd be warm
If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain

If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again
I'd memorize each thing you ever said
And on those lonely nights
I could think of them once more
And keep your words alive inside my head
If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again

You were the treasure in my hand
You were the one who always stood beside me
So unaware I foolishly believed
That you would always be there
And then there came a day when I
Turned my head, and you slipped away.

If I had only known
It was my last night by your side
I pray a miracle to stop the dawn
And when you smiled at me
I would look into your eyes
And make sure you know my love for you
Goes on and on...
If I had only known.
If I had only known.
The love I would have shown,
If I had only known.

by Reba McEntire

I know this is just for 5 months, right? But, without you by my side, life is worthless. I'm so sad now. I hope 5 months is just a minute away - but no, it seems like forever and it crushes my heart seeing you walking away from me. It's killing me now as this means that I'll be celebrating Christmas and my birthday without you.

I'll wait for you baby. Even if it takes me forever. I love you...