If you're depressed, how would you deal with it? What are the things you would do for you to overcome it? I guess this is what I am feeling now. Maybe, I just need a break, stop thinking, and start packing things and go to Zambales (haha, how I wish I could do that today).
I just need a break.
Three more months. 90 days. Still a long time. Still waiting.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Enjoying Life With Love. 91
Few months ago, I thought I would be single for a couple of years, although, the thought of being with someone was never short. Who could have imagined me being in a relationship? Or should I say, opted to be serious about it rather that wandering around enjoying the gifts of being single?
A lot of things I could have enjoyed if I were single. First, I could go wherever I want without worrying that someone might be looking for me. Asking permission from your partner was one of my most-hated things to do before. Why couldn’t I enjoy myself being free? And, was it really necessary to ask permission rather than informing your partner on your whereabouts? Second, I could do everything I want in life without thinking if these would affect both of you as partners. An exemplar would be making friends to others – obviously, one of the most well-known issues in a relationship. Why couldn’t I make friends even though the intention was nothing but making friends only? And making friends wouldn’t really hurt your relationship (unless, there’s something in it – but, not me). Third, I could move freely as long as I want without minding the pressure of handling someone with care. I guess this one was the most difficult part to do in a relationship – being responsible at all times. I was afraid of responsibility because I couldn’t do all the things I want. Instead of happily living life as it should be, the presence of your significant other would hurt that fundamental nature of life.
But now, I have realized that loving someone makes me enjoy life more – more than what life has to offer. Love has an unfathomable meaning - not just by being responsible, not just by achieving things together, not just by allowing both of you to be fulfilled and happy, but also, reaching the true meaning of living life to the fullest. Without love, this world would never be a good place to live in.
The feeling is so great to be in love and I would never trade this to anything else that would hurt or ruin all the life’s chapters that we have spent together.
At this point, I could not ask for more. I feel so complete and I thank God for this opportunity He has given me.
A lot of things I could have enjoyed if I were single. First, I could go wherever I want without worrying that someone might be looking for me. Asking permission from your partner was one of my most-hated things to do before. Why couldn’t I enjoy myself being free? And, was it really necessary to ask permission rather than informing your partner on your whereabouts? Second, I could do everything I want in life without thinking if these would affect both of you as partners. An exemplar would be making friends to others – obviously, one of the most well-known issues in a relationship. Why couldn’t I make friends even though the intention was nothing but making friends only? And making friends wouldn’t really hurt your relationship (unless, there’s something in it – but, not me). Third, I could move freely as long as I want without minding the pressure of handling someone with care. I guess this one was the most difficult part to do in a relationship – being responsible at all times. I was afraid of responsibility because I couldn’t do all the things I want. Instead of happily living life as it should be, the presence of your significant other would hurt that fundamental nature of life.
But now, I have realized that loving someone makes me enjoy life more – more than what life has to offer. Love has an unfathomable meaning - not just by being responsible, not just by achieving things together, not just by allowing both of you to be fulfilled and happy, but also, reaching the true meaning of living life to the fullest. Without love, this world would never be a good place to live in.
The feeling is so great to be in love and I would never trade this to anything else that would hurt or ruin all the life’s chapters that we have spent together.
At this point, I could not ask for more. I feel so complete and I thank God for this opportunity He has given me.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
¿Cómo Estás? at 92
First day was a blast. I came in early, 30 minutes before the class has started, looked for my name on the lists posted on each glass door, and alas, found my nómbre on Aula Siéte. I was supposed to go in right away, but due to my high anxiety levels, I decided to wait outside. Well, what could I say? It was my first day.
The class started late by 10 minutes and we met our professor, Sandra. When she walked in, she said, “hola! Buenas tardes”, at least I understood that one. However, when she asked us, “Como te llamas?”, we didn’t know what to say. I didn’t know what como means nor te llamas. And to our amazement, she kept on speaking in Spanish and my seat mate asked me, “I thought we’re in a begginers’ class?” Nevertheless, we apparently knew that she was asking about our names as she drew a lot of figures on the board. She didn’t try to translate these Spanish words into English as she didn’t want us to do English translation if we try to speak Spanish. We got her point of view – a lot more difficult if we translate Spanish to English than learning the language by itself.
We started by simple words and phrases. Good thing that Filipino language is so akin to Spanish (not all the time, but, at least). We started with the word ‘hola’ with no H (eych). Then cómo estás, and the different words on how to answer back – fenomenal, muy bien, bien, asi-asi, mal, muy mal. Then, she taught us on how to introduce ourselves in Spanish. Let me try again:
¿Cómo estás? Buenas Noches. Me llamo Jermaine, Y tú ¿cómo te llamas? Soy de Ciudad de Davao, pero, vivo en ciudad de Mandaluyong ¿dónde vives? Mucho gusto, hasta pronto.
¿Cómo se escribe Jermaine? Jota, e, erre, eme, a, i, ene, e. ¿otra vez? No. Descausa pausa.
Gracias. Buenas noches, otra vez.
How as it? Good? Muy bien!
Afterwards, Sandra taught us the use of Yo, Tú, El, and Ella. Then she shared a lot of most commonly used words in Spanish. She even asked what carné means. We confidently answered, MEAT. We laughed our hearts out as we knew that it means “card” as she was informing us to get our library cards next week. That was so hilarious.
The whole afternoon was full of fun. Met new friends, my seatmate Vange, and my co-avid fan of Manchester united, Stephen. We had our snack at Wendy’s, then I headed towards intercom hotel to workout.
Now, I am decided to complete all the levels at Instituto Cervantes. The teaching is good. The school is very nice. The students are awesome (I even asked my friend to pay me a visit at school, I guess you know why). Lol.
Hasta la semana que viene.
The class started late by 10 minutes and we met our professor, Sandra. When she walked in, she said, “hola! Buenas tardes”, at least I understood that one. However, when she asked us, “Como te llamas?”, we didn’t know what to say. I didn’t know what como means nor te llamas. And to our amazement, she kept on speaking in Spanish and my seat mate asked me, “I thought we’re in a begginers’ class?” Nevertheless, we apparently knew that she was asking about our names as she drew a lot of figures on the board. She didn’t try to translate these Spanish words into English as she didn’t want us to do English translation if we try to speak Spanish. We got her point of view – a lot more difficult if we translate Spanish to English than learning the language by itself.
We started by simple words and phrases. Good thing that Filipino language is so akin to Spanish (not all the time, but, at least). We started with the word ‘hola’ with no H (eych). Then cómo estás, and the different words on how to answer back – fenomenal, muy bien, bien, asi-asi, mal, muy mal. Then, she taught us on how to introduce ourselves in Spanish. Let me try again:
¿Cómo estás? Buenas Noches. Me llamo Jermaine, Y tú ¿cómo te llamas? Soy de Ciudad de Davao, pero, vivo en ciudad de Mandaluyong ¿dónde vives? Mucho gusto, hasta pronto.
¿Cómo se escribe Jermaine? Jota, e, erre, eme, a, i, ene, e. ¿otra vez? No. Descausa pausa.
Gracias. Buenas noches, otra vez.
How as it? Good? Muy bien!
Afterwards, Sandra taught us the use of Yo, Tú, El, and Ella. Then she shared a lot of most commonly used words in Spanish. She even asked what carné means. We confidently answered, MEAT. We laughed our hearts out as we knew that it means “card” as she was informing us to get our library cards next week. That was so hilarious.
The whole afternoon was full of fun. Met new friends, my seatmate Vange, and my co-avid fan of Manchester united, Stephen. We had our snack at Wendy’s, then I headed towards intercom hotel to workout.
Now, I am decided to complete all the levels at Instituto Cervantes. The teaching is good. The school is very nice. The students are awesome (I even asked my friend to pay me a visit at school, I guess you know why). Lol.
Hasta la semana que viene.
Friday, November 27, 2009
93 Days To Go
All I know right now is that I'm in love with you. No matter how far we are with each other, whatever road you may be on, I know my love for you will never fade. On the day that you will be home, I'll throw my arms around you, hold you tight, and I will never let you go. 93 days seems so long, but I know, it's worth the wait.
Just remember, you will always be my baby.
I love you!
Just remember, you will always be my baby.
I love you!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
A Feeling Of Nostalgia. 94
It's Thanksgiving day today, at least for the Americans - thanks to former US president, George Washington, who proclaimed every fourth thursday of November as Thanksgiving day in 1789. This means that everyone in the trading floor is all set for their dinner tonight with friends and family, no trading at all, no market, no trades and exchanges to book, no reconciliations, no conversations with fund accountants, in short, no work today (wohoo!).
Earlier, I met my Auntie Cynthia (who came from Davao) at the Manila Hotel - they had this PAMET convention and it happens every year-end. The moment I saw her at the lobby, after a few months I got separated from my hometown again, I rushed in and gave her a massive hug - so massive that I wanted to feel Davao again. She was with my Mom's friend, Edna, and we moved our way to Ayala to shop. While traveling (huge thanks to Manila's traffic as we took 2 hours to Makati - well, it was rush a hour, what could I say?), we were talking about my family. She told me that Mom is fine, my brother is still "pasaway" and just recently bought a drum set, my lolo is already old (at 86) but still healthy, my younger cousins are still looking for a job, my nephew, Isaiah, is already 2 years old, our home is still pretty unchanged, and Davao is still a good place to live in. I miss everything about Davao and I miss everyone back home. Thanks to Auntie Cynthia for bringing Davao to me. She'll be going back home this Saturday.
I remember the time when I was in grade school that Mom would always remind me to wait her to fetch me up after school hours - she was afraid as I was prone on talking to strangers. I had this experience when grandma asked me to buy some toiletries at a nearby supermarket. A woman asked me if I could let her find the items that I needed on the list grandma gave me. She even asked if I could give her the money as she would do all the job. I gave her a 500 peso bill and waited at the counter. I was pretty amazed then that some people had good hearts to help kids like me complete the tasks. I was even prepared to tell a story to grandma and mom what happened at the store. I waited for 30 minutes, then an hour, then I asked myself why she was taking so long. I still waited at the counter though only to find out that I was tricked as I was told by the security guard beside me. I cried and asked help from the ladies at the counter. They couldn't help me as they thought that the woman who deceived me had already left the store. Kids like me didn't have any idea about the use of this unscrupulous trickery to deceive others. I was just 10 that time. I walked my way back home while shaking in fear thinking that grandma would scold me. But they just laughed their hearts out after hearing my story.
Oh well, I can't wait for the holidays as I am already booked for a flight back home. I'll be seeing my family and friends again and I know it will be a blast. This will be the first time in 4 years that I will be celebrating my Christmas with my family again. I miss them so much.
And yeah, 94 days to go and you'll be home. Pretty fast, huh? I feel that swiss time is ticking fast today. I know that it contradicts to what I have said on my previous entries. Oh, did I just say swiss time? swiss? watch? haha. lol.
Earlier, I met my Auntie Cynthia (who came from Davao) at the Manila Hotel - they had this PAMET convention and it happens every year-end. The moment I saw her at the lobby, after a few months I got separated from my hometown again, I rushed in and gave her a massive hug - so massive that I wanted to feel Davao again. She was with my Mom's friend, Edna, and we moved our way to Ayala to shop. While traveling (huge thanks to Manila's traffic as we took 2 hours to Makati - well, it was rush a hour, what could I say?), we were talking about my family. She told me that Mom is fine, my brother is still "pasaway" and just recently bought a drum set, my lolo is already old (at 86) but still healthy, my younger cousins are still looking for a job, my nephew, Isaiah, is already 2 years old, our home is still pretty unchanged, and Davao is still a good place to live in. I miss everything about Davao and I miss everyone back home. Thanks to Auntie Cynthia for bringing Davao to me. She'll be going back home this Saturday.
I remember the time when I was in grade school that Mom would always remind me to wait her to fetch me up after school hours - she was afraid as I was prone on talking to strangers. I had this experience when grandma asked me to buy some toiletries at a nearby supermarket. A woman asked me if I could let her find the items that I needed on the list grandma gave me. She even asked if I could give her the money as she would do all the job. I gave her a 500 peso bill and waited at the counter. I was pretty amazed then that some people had good hearts to help kids like me complete the tasks. I was even prepared to tell a story to grandma and mom what happened at the store. I waited for 30 minutes, then an hour, then I asked myself why she was taking so long. I still waited at the counter though only to find out that I was tricked as I was told by the security guard beside me. I cried and asked help from the ladies at the counter. They couldn't help me as they thought that the woman who deceived me had already left the store. Kids like me didn't have any idea about the use of this unscrupulous trickery to deceive others. I was just 10 that time. I walked my way back home while shaking in fear thinking that grandma would scold me. But they just laughed their hearts out after hearing my story.
Oh well, I can't wait for the holidays as I am already booked for a flight back home. I'll be seeing my family and friends again and I know it will be a blast. This will be the first time in 4 years that I will be celebrating my Christmas with my family again. I miss them so much.
And yeah, 94 days to go and you'll be home. Pretty fast, huh? I feel that swiss time is ticking fast today. I know that it contradicts to what I have said on my previous entries. Oh, did I just say swiss time? swiss? watch? haha. lol.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Midweek at 95
Nothing special happened on this day, actually, except for the fact that I was too busy earlier in the office - talking about hundreds of trades and exchanges that needed to be booked for a certain day which was already locked by accounting. And a lot more.
Oh time, here I go again. I don't want to use all my time working but, I don't want to be idle at the same time. Is it really factual that we have 24 hours in a day? Who invented time? I know there's a lot of physics here but, can I ask that someone why he/she concluded that we have 24 hours in a day? I know time is a component of the measuring system, but who validated it? Is there a world body that governs time? How do we quantify it? Can we alter it? Is it true that human behavior depends on time? How?
I know I'm getting crazy over time. Just a thought.
I think I just need a swiss watch. lol.
Oh time, here I go again. I don't want to use all my time working but, I don't want to be idle at the same time. Is it really factual that we have 24 hours in a day? Who invented time? I know there's a lot of physics here but, can I ask that someone why he/she concluded that we have 24 hours in a day? I know time is a component of the measuring system, but who validated it? Is there a world body that governs time? How do we quantify it? Can we alter it? Is it true that human behavior depends on time? How?
I know I'm getting crazy over time. Just a thought.
I think I just need a swiss watch. lol.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Destiny. 96
I know I've been talking about 'waiting' for days now. I know it's hard but I couldn't help it. I started my 100 days countdown few days ago but it seems that it drives me crazy thinking about counting the days. I couldn't sleep at night (or rather in the morning) just thinking about it. 96 days is still a long time and I know a lot of things can happen.
Few months ago, I would always think that I would be single for the rest of the year. I didn't even care about the thought that someone was waiting for me - someone whom I shared my life with for the past year. And I took that for granted.
When I started working on my current company, a lot of things have changed especially with my work schedule. Still, I didn't mind that at least, I should have been sensitive to what others have felt towards me. I was immature, insensitive, and a daft prick. I enjoyed my life so much without thinking that I could have enjoyed it more if I have only grabbed the chance for me to love somebody. My bad, and I am regretting it now. My baby left for Zurich two weeks after we became official.
But, hey, its not too late yet. The story doesn't end here and we are just starting to create our first life's chapter together. I don't believe in destiny alone. But rather, I believe that we are destined to shape our own destiny. Destiny alone wouldn't bring you to your happiness together. I mean, both of you has to work on it - you have to be there, at least. Even though you are worlds apart, you still have to build that bridge - a bridge that would always help both of you to keep that fire burning.
Few months ago, I would always think that I would be single for the rest of the year. I didn't even care about the thought that someone was waiting for me - someone whom I shared my life with for the past year. And I took that for granted.
When I started working on my current company, a lot of things have changed especially with my work schedule. Still, I didn't mind that at least, I should have been sensitive to what others have felt towards me. I was immature, insensitive, and a daft prick. I enjoyed my life so much without thinking that I could have enjoyed it more if I have only grabbed the chance for me to love somebody. My bad, and I am regretting it now. My baby left for Zurich two weeks after we became official.
But, hey, its not too late yet. The story doesn't end here and we are just starting to create our first life's chapter together. I don't believe in destiny alone. But rather, I believe that we are destined to shape our own destiny. Destiny alone wouldn't bring you to your happiness together. I mean, both of you has to work on it - you have to be there, at least. Even though you are worlds apart, you still have to build that bridge - a bridge that would always help both of you to keep that fire burning.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Sluggish Time. Still at 97.
I feel sad today. Every time I remember that Christmas is fast approaching, I couldn't help but think that there's this deep emptiness within me (not that I feel incomplete, but the mere fact that I am missing someone). Three days is over but it's still 97 days more and I always wish time would fly fast - so fast that I couldn't feel the hardships of waiting. Someone at work once told me that time ticks slow when you're waiting and it ticks fast when you're enjoying the moment. It's so true. I know how it feels when you're waiting for someone when you know that you will be missing some important holidays you can spend together - thinking of Christmas, New Year, my birthday, and Valentine's day. Every day that I count drives me crazy as it takes 24 hours to complete a day - Oh God, I still have 97 days and 24 hours a day is too long for me. Time, why are you so sluggish? Is there a way for you to skip thousands of hours and bring me to Feb 28 real soon? Sigh.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
A Milestone at 98
Sunday. First Monthsary. A milestone.
A lot of things happened on this day as I didn't want to make myself idle for the whole day. I woke up at 2pm, quickly took a bath and headed to Intercon (again) to work out. The weather was good, no rains at all, a pretty fine day to start with. I arrived at the gym around 3:30pm and did my cardio workout for 40mins. I took an hour to finish my routine, took 20mins in the shower, 10mins to dress up, and walked my way to Greenbelt chapel to attend the mass.
Arrived at exactly 6:10, a bit late for the mass, but still good. The chapel was jam-packed and I found my spot near the chapel's entrance. Father Biboy (the priest) celebrated the mass. His homily was about putting God in our hearts. He asked everyone if we always put God first in our hearts. I was moved because, I often forget about it. I always think about my job, think about my friends, think about my security, think about my love life, think about what's-gonna-happen-next, etc. I even forgot to thank Him when I got my current job few months ago. I forgot to thank Him on all the things he did for me for the past months. Now, I'm living my life happily, harvesting all the fruits that I deserve without thanking Him. Now I know how it feels being guilty. I cried in the middle of the priest's homily. I immediately prayed and I asked God for forgiveness. I thanked Him for my current job, thanked Him for the goodness he has shown me, and thanked Him that he gave me someone to love. Shortly, I received God's blessing during the Holy Communion. I prayed again and I cried. Afterwards, I texted my baby:
"Bhe, umiiyak ako d2 sa mass. Sobrang na touched ako. Im so thankful God has given me a wonderful family, a nice job, healthy and happy life. Also, I thank Him for letting me know u. Thank you for coming into my life. I will never forget this moment. I love Him as he gave me strength to survive eventhough Im alone in Manila, thank you bhe for being part of my journey and im looking forward to be with you for the rest of my life. i love you. happy monthsary."
and my baby replied;
"Bhe, na touch ako sa txt mo. Thankful dn ako at naging tayo. nag pay na din and long dating period and i know na mas madami pang mangyayari sa atin na mgaganda."
I left the chapel with joy in my heart. I hurriedly went to powerbooks as Beth was waiting for me there. I told her what happened while I was hearing the mass. Told her how lucky I am where I am now. After 5 years of living alone, I got stability, I got everything I want, supported my family back in Davao, got a nice job, found the love of my life, etc. Now I'm looking forward to work everyday, talk to my baby after office hours (and attend my spanish class every saturday =)).
Then, we went towards Recipe resto and had our dinner there. I ordered my all time fave gising-gising, and Beth ordered Spicy squid. The dinner was good except for the fact that I ate 2 and a half rice. Arggghhh.
At 9pm, we met Cristy at starbucks downstairs. I enjoyed my extra hot, non-fat, no whip, tofeenut latte. That was so so good while having conversation with them.
Later on, we went to KFC at peoplesupport at 12midnight. I ordered original chicken recipe with overflowing gravy and a cup of rice.
Went home at 1am.
A simple note to my baby:
Bhe, I know we are a thousand miles apart and couldn't even feel each others warmth. But, the only thing I know is that I love you so much. No matter how far we are with each other, You're still the only one I truly love. Its only 98 days and you'll be home. I can't wait to see again and I am looking forward for our next monthsaries and anniversaries. I thank God as he let me attend the mass today and hear His words. I'm so thankful that I have known you and I couldn't imagine what my life would be now without you. We're done with our first day, and now, our first month, and I'm looking forward for our first anniversary. Thanks for being part of this new journey of mine and I hope we could make a lot of life's chapters together. I miss you and I love you. Ich liebe dich.
A lot of things happened on this day as I didn't want to make myself idle for the whole day. I woke up at 2pm, quickly took a bath and headed to Intercon (again) to work out. The weather was good, no rains at all, a pretty fine day to start with. I arrived at the gym around 3:30pm and did my cardio workout for 40mins. I took an hour to finish my routine, took 20mins in the shower, 10mins to dress up, and walked my way to Greenbelt chapel to attend the mass.
Arrived at exactly 6:10, a bit late for the mass, but still good. The chapel was jam-packed and I found my spot near the chapel's entrance. Father Biboy (the priest) celebrated the mass. His homily was about putting God in our hearts. He asked everyone if we always put God first in our hearts. I was moved because, I often forget about it. I always think about my job, think about my friends, think about my security, think about my love life, think about what's-gonna-happen-next, etc. I even forgot to thank Him when I got my current job few months ago. I forgot to thank Him on all the things he did for me for the past months. Now, I'm living my life happily, harvesting all the fruits that I deserve without thanking Him. Now I know how it feels being guilty. I cried in the middle of the priest's homily. I immediately prayed and I asked God for forgiveness. I thanked Him for my current job, thanked Him for the goodness he has shown me, and thanked Him that he gave me someone to love. Shortly, I received God's blessing during the Holy Communion. I prayed again and I cried. Afterwards, I texted my baby:
"Bhe, umiiyak ako d2 sa mass. Sobrang na touched ako. Im so thankful God has given me a wonderful family, a nice job, healthy and happy life. Also, I thank Him for letting me know u. Thank you for coming into my life. I will never forget this moment. I love Him as he gave me strength to survive eventhough Im alone in Manila, thank you bhe for being part of my journey and im looking forward to be with you for the rest of my life. i love you. happy monthsary."
and my baby replied;
"Bhe, na touch ako sa txt mo. Thankful dn ako at naging tayo. nag pay na din and long dating period and i know na mas madami pang mangyayari sa atin na mgaganda."
I left the chapel with joy in my heart. I hurriedly went to powerbooks as Beth was waiting for me there. I told her what happened while I was hearing the mass. Told her how lucky I am where I am now. After 5 years of living alone, I got stability, I got everything I want, supported my family back in Davao, got a nice job, found the love of my life, etc. Now I'm looking forward to work everyday, talk to my baby after office hours (and attend my spanish class every saturday =)).
Then, we went towards Recipe resto and had our dinner there. I ordered my all time fave gising-gising, and Beth ordered Spicy squid. The dinner was good except for the fact that I ate 2 and a half rice. Arggghhh.
At 9pm, we met Cristy at starbucks downstairs. I enjoyed my extra hot, non-fat, no whip, tofeenut latte. That was so so good while having conversation with them.
Later on, we went to KFC at peoplesupport at 12midnight. I ordered original chicken recipe with overflowing gravy and a cup of rice.
Went home at 1am.
A simple note to my baby:
Bhe, I know we are a thousand miles apart and couldn't even feel each others warmth. But, the only thing I know is that I love you so much. No matter how far we are with each other, You're still the only one I truly love. Its only 98 days and you'll be home. I can't wait to see again and I am looking forward for our next monthsaries and anniversaries. I thank God as he let me attend the mass today and hear His words. I'm so thankful that I have known you and I couldn't imagine what my life would be now without you. We're done with our first day, and now, our first month, and I'm looking forward for our first anniversary. Thanks for being part of this new journey of mine and I hope we could make a lot of life's chapters together. I miss you and I love you. Ich liebe dich.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Still Waiting At 99
Today is officially 99 days to go.
Earlier, I went to Instituto Cervantes to enroll myself on a Spanish Class that will start next week for 10 weeks for curso academico 2009-2010 (haha, I'm just practicing myself, porque?). The new building is flourishing with Spanish inspiration located west of TM Kalaw St. in Ermita, Manila. Inside, a lot of people were using the Spanish language even the receptionist as I had to guess if she was a Filipino or not (but, when she called the guard "Kuya, yung susi", what a sigh of relief!). While waiting for my turn to enlist myself, I went to their library - full of books, literatures, magazines, and guess what? All in Spanish. WTF, I didn't understand every single word, lol. I forced myself to read the COMER magazine while holding my number 384 (thank God, the numbers were not in Spanish). Then my number was called and I immediately went to Elvie's office. After 15 minutes, I got my Justificante De Matricula (confirmation of enrollment) and got the 19th slot (they only allow maximum of 20 students per class - good job for waking up early).
Actually, here's the story behind my enrollment into this class.
I left the condo unit at 2pm and hurriedly delivered my dirty clothes to the laundry shop (unfortunately, they couldn't pick up my clothes for some reason). Found a taxi at 2:30 pm and asked the driver "Manong, sa vito cruz po". I thought Instituto Cervantes was located there. When we were nearing vito cruz - taft, I couldn't find it. I disembarked the taxi near Osmena Highway and walked my way through the whole stretch of Leon Guinto St. looking for it. But, to no avail, there was no Instituto Cervantes and I even remembered that it was located near vito cruz (thanks to that freakin' website I visited yesterday). I called Joshanna and asked her if she has internet access at home but unfortunately, none at the moment. I went to a certain Internet shop near la salle and quickly browsed Instituto's website. To my amazement, it was located at TM Kalaw St and not near vito cruz. Arggghh. I hastily looked for a cab and went ahead. I lost an hour just finding where it is located.
Finally, I found it and it looked like an International School with lots of Spaniards inside the building. And, that was it! Enrolled and stamped myself for this 10-week course.
At 4:15, I met Joshanna at her Dormitory near la salle. Returned the book and told her "You know what Josh, Kami na!, hehe". And then, she begged me to tell her more stories about "us". I did, and she cracked. She asked more questions all the way from la salle to makati while in the cab. I miss her so much. She got off near Paseo to meet Trina, and I headed myself towards Intercon to workout.
Now, I'm home. Watched Maalaala Mo kaya earlier, and now watching PBB, then Banana Split later.
I miss my baby...
And it's only 99 days to go then you will be home.
I love you... It's our Monthsary tomorrow...
Ich Liebe Dich... =)
Friday, November 20, 2009
100 Days Of Waiting
Oh! It's friday, Nov 20, and it's officially the start of my countdown. Hopefully, time will fly so fast as I can't wait what's gonna happen on Feb 28. I know a lot of things can happen in 100 days, but I'm sure it's worth the wait.
Now, what's gonna happen for the next 100 days? First, I'll be blogging every activity I do for the day (hopefully no skipping, as I am prone on doing that. Speaking of laziness?) Next, I'll be posting pictures that best describe that day. Then, I'll be making entries on some important events (or extraordinary adventures) happened . I know it takes a lot of work, but on the brighter side, every day that passes by means a day minus to 100.
Isn't it fun?
Expect lots of pictures at the office as I am well considered by my friends as workaholic, pictures at the gym (though I only work out every weekend because of my beloved job on a weekday), pictures with my friends, Leo and Vermon (I hope they will have enough time for me), pictures while surfing with my surf bud, Ken (yeah, I'll be going back surfing, I miss it!), and a lot more pictures.
Right now, I'm on my bed, 4:44AM Manila.
I hope everything's gonna be fine. =)
Baby, I miss you...
Now, what's gonna happen for the next 100 days? First, I'll be blogging every activity I do for the day (hopefully no skipping, as I am prone on doing that. Speaking of laziness?) Next, I'll be posting pictures that best describe that day. Then, I'll be making entries on some important events (or extraordinary adventures) happened . I know it takes a lot of work, but on the brighter side, every day that passes by means a day minus to 100.
Isn't it fun?
Expect lots of pictures at the office as I am well considered by my friends as workaholic, pictures at the gym (though I only work out every weekend because of my beloved job on a weekday), pictures with my friends, Leo and Vermon (I hope they will have enough time for me), pictures while surfing with my surf bud, Ken (yeah, I'll be going back surfing, I miss it!), and a lot more pictures.
Right now, I'm on my bed, 4:44AM Manila.
I hope everything's gonna be fine. =)
Baby, I miss you...
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
For My Baby
This song is for you baby...
I Could Not Ask For More
Lying here with you,
Listening to the rain,
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face,
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need,
Everything you are is everything to me,
These are the moments I know Heaven must exist,
These are the moments I know all I need is this,
I've found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I've had's come true,
Yeah, right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, here with me. . . Yeah.
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more. . .
Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I've had's come true,
And right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, here with me. . .
I could not ask for more than this love you give me,
Cause it's all I've waited for . . .
And I could not ask for more,
I could not ask for more.
I Could Not Ask For More
Lying here with you,
Listening to the rain,
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face,
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments I'll remember all my life,
I found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need,
Everything you are is everything to me,
These are the moments I know Heaven must exist,
These are the moments I know all I need is this,
I've found all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more.
Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I've had's come true,
Yeah, right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, here with me. . . Yeah.
These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive,
These are the moments, I'll remember all my life,
I've got all I've waited for,
And I could not ask for more. . .
Chorus:
I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I've had's come true,
And right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, here with me. . .
I could not ask for more than this love you give me,
Cause it's all I've waited for . . .
And I could not ask for more,
I could not ask for more.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Wednesday With Friends
Today is Wednesday, November 11, a US holiday (Veteran's Day), thus I don't have work today (Thanks to Paul for giving me the chance to take this leave and have him cover for me at the office). I'm dying to take this leave as I need to take a breather - away from the office and more time with my friends.
Last Saturday was huge. I cried for hours and couldn't sleep thinking that 4 months would never easy for me. I hated the feeling of seeing someone close to you walking away from you in the airport. I felt I just couldn't breathe at that very moment and my mind was terribly exhausted thinking about it. As we went out of the airport, I took a last glimpse of the airport building waving goodbye to my baby. Vermon started his car engine, moved out of the parking area, and finally out of the airport compound. I went straight home, and couldn't sleep.
I was deeply depressed the next day, Sunday. I invited Cham to spend her day with me. We went to Trinoma and had our lunch-sort-of-a-dinner at David's Hotpot. I told her everything and I felt really good as she knew the meaning of empathy. We watched a movie (Law Abiding Citizen) as we always do with my baby every Sunday. Went to Eastwood after that (finally after 2++ years). We watched the fountain as it danced through the music the mall was playing while having our Ice-blended coffeebean drink. When the mall played 'I Could Not Ask For More', I cried while watching the water dancing with the music (Cham didn't know this as a I wiped my tears right away). I had a great night with her. I would love to spend my Sunday again with her. Thanks Cham.
Now, it's already 4:46 pm and I need to get ready. Vermon and I will be meeting at the gym, will work out while waiting for Leo. I know tonight's gonna be full of fun with my dearest friends. I need them now.
I miss you baby... Ich liebe dich!
Last Saturday was huge. I cried for hours and couldn't sleep thinking that 4 months would never easy for me. I hated the feeling of seeing someone close to you walking away from you in the airport. I felt I just couldn't breathe at that very moment and my mind was terribly exhausted thinking about it. As we went out of the airport, I took a last glimpse of the airport building waving goodbye to my baby. Vermon started his car engine, moved out of the parking area, and finally out of the airport compound. I went straight home, and couldn't sleep.
I was deeply depressed the next day, Sunday. I invited Cham to spend her day with me. We went to Trinoma and had our lunch-sort-of-a-dinner at David's Hotpot. I told her everything and I felt really good as she knew the meaning of empathy. We watched a movie (Law Abiding Citizen) as we always do with my baby every Sunday. Went to Eastwood after that (finally after 2++ years). We watched the fountain as it danced through the music the mall was playing while having our Ice-blended coffeebean drink. When the mall played 'I Could Not Ask For More', I cried while watching the water dancing with the music (Cham didn't know this as a I wiped my tears right away). I had a great night with her. I would love to spend my Sunday again with her. Thanks Cham.
Now, it's already 4:46 pm and I need to get ready. Vermon and I will be meeting at the gym, will work out while waiting for Leo. I know tonight's gonna be full of fun with my dearest friends. I need them now.
I miss you baby... Ich liebe dich!
Monday, November 9, 2009
A Swiss List
Switzerland. Bordered by Germany to the North, Italy to the south, France to the west and Austria to the east. The home of top male tennis player, birthplace of humanitarianism, and the momentary place of the one I love.
If I were given the chance to visit this country, here's the list of to-do's before I go back to Manila.
1. I'll travel from Zurich to Geneva and take some pictures of ICRC building and its courtyard (if there's any).
2. I'll make a way to grab an ICRC shirt with the logo "COMITE INTERNATIONAL GENEVE" (I'm not sure if they allow civilians to obtain this shirt - per Geneva Convention of 1949. But then again, I'll make a way to get one, haha).
3. I'll buy a Red Cross PIN.
4. Visit University of Zurich and take a picture of Albert Einstein's Monument, school building, and the courtyard.
5. As Switzerland is considered as the top exporter of watches, I'll get one.
6. I'll buy a tennis ball and have it signed by Roger Federer.
7. Visit neighboring countries and take pictures of every important landmark.
And most of all, I will never forget to talk to the one I love in the Philippines over YM and FB and I'll make sure I'll do it every single day for four months.
I miss you baby...
If I were given the chance to visit this country, here's the list of to-do's before I go back to Manila.
1. I'll travel from Zurich to Geneva and take some pictures of ICRC building and its courtyard (if there's any).
2. I'll make a way to grab an ICRC shirt with the logo "COMITE INTERNATIONAL GENEVE" (I'm not sure if they allow civilians to obtain this shirt - per Geneva Convention of 1949. But then again, I'll make a way to get one, haha).
3. I'll buy a Red Cross PIN.
4. Visit University of Zurich and take a picture of Albert Einstein's Monument, school building, and the courtyard.
5. As Switzerland is considered as the top exporter of watches, I'll get one.
6. I'll buy a tennis ball and have it signed by Roger Federer.
7. Visit neighboring countries and take pictures of every important landmark.
And most of all, I will never forget to talk to the one I love in the Philippines over YM and FB and I'll make sure I'll do it every single day for four months.
I miss you baby...
Friday, November 6, 2009
This Is It!
I'm not actually referring to Michael Jackson's 'This Is It' or a movie review of some sort either. Today is friday morning and its a bit awkward to be alone (again) especially if you're not used to it. Anxiety is happening now as I know the fact that I need to be strong and be more positive. Some people would think that its almost weekend and hell week would soon be over. But for me, it's not as someone close to me is finally leaving this saturday - Zurich, it is! 12hrs away from home.
Vermon, Leo, where are you?
sleep mode. zzzzzzzzzz...
Vermon, Leo, where are you?
sleep mode. zzzzzzzzzz...
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Nothing
I don't have that much to say at the moment. Let's wait and see until Saturday. Should I be happier? Or should I cry again hoping everything will turn out fine.
Now, I'm bewildered again.
Now, I'm bewildered again.
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